If facebook led you here, don't worry, I'm not going to bore anybody with my sob story. I just want to write about my day and my piece.

2 years ago I felt really defeated (due to some experiences I don't want to get into). I went through a weird funk..I couldn't concentrate much, I liked to while away time, nothing excited me and most of all, I wasn't inspired to work. Every new thing I started, I would leave unfinished thinking I'm not good enough. I didn't realize why I was feeling that way..all I knew was that I was a complete failure. I remember thinking there are a hundred other people more talented than me and I don't stand a chance in front of them. I even started to re-consider if I wanted to be an artist.

I'm pretty sure we all go through this phase of seriously doubting ourselves and our abilities..we feel like shit and think we've totally failed in life. If you thought its just you, you're not alone.

It took me a while..Almost 2 years to get out of that dump. I didn't care enough to share it with others..so I struggled through it myself (except for one person who always told me to believe in myself..but at that time it sounded like crap). But 2 years later, I was happy, confident and excited. I had a plan, things were going great and I was finally starting to believe that things happen for a reason..and that everything pays off in the end.

Then today happened. I feel like I'm back in that dump. Maybe not as deep emotionally but much deeper in reality. I feel defeated and I don't have a back up plan. 

I'm not sharing all this with you so you leave me comments telling me that everything will be alright..I know things work out in the end and I know something good will come out of this too..but right now, at this moment, I'm allowed to feel depressed.

Anyway, this too shall pass I know. But I wasn't in a state of mind to draw today. I had decided that I won't doodle today and continue tomorrow. But that would mean not completing the 10 day challenge. That again, would be a defeat. And no! I cannot afford to lose again. I'm not going back into the funk and leaving things unfinished. So I drew whatever my brain could handle. 

This one is called 'Release me'.